thinking about.....

Ok so i hate having too much time to just sit down and think.

....I DONT WANNA THINK!....

At my job I have alot of downtime. It is during this downtime that i just sit there and think. Sometimes I sit and reflect about my life.

I think about how i got to where i am today.

All the people back home that i miss so much.

All the things I'm restricted from.

All of the freedom i dont have.

These are just a few of the MANY things that go thru my head.

I am proud of myself and of where i am today.

But I think

If i didnt go through everything i did would i still be the same person?

Would i be where i am today had i not made those sacrifices that i did?

But then I also think,

God made me go through all of it for a reason.

All of it made me a stronger person,

the person I am today.

I might not seem like a strong person because I'm so quiet.

But just remember that saying:

"Never judge a book by its cover"

I don't wanna wonder about my past.

I don't want to worry too much about the present,

because eventually it will become the past.

I want to keep my eyes on the future.

I have some control over my future,

I can decide wether to go to school

or wether I just want to find a job and fall in love.

Now instead of thinking about my past,

I can wonder about my future

=)