Fall For Your Type

"Tell me why I always fall for your type"
sigh
HOW TRUE THIS IS FOR ME
I always far for guys who
are jerks
...dogs...
I always far for guys who
make me feel like they like me
but they only like me for a little while

I don't want to be that kinda girl
I don't want to be the girl you want for a LITTLE WHILE
I want to be the girl you want TO SPEND TIME WITH

For some reason
I can't find myself attracted to a good guy
somebody that actually wants to spend time with me
somebody who would appreciate me
& I don't know how to change that

Rambling thoughts

Some people are very focused and don't get distracted very easily
unfortunately
...I'M NOT ONE OF THEM...
My brain works in a different way.
I have the attention span of a squirrel.
My friends say I prolly have ADHD
....but that's also because I can't sit still for too long....
I always lose my train of thought when I'm talking to somebody.

I've been told several times that I should dye my hair blonde
....no racist....
*sigh*

My "friend"
...or umm more like an acquaintance...
seems to have his life so figured out
he's focused
he's going to school
he's working
he goes to the gym regularly
& whenever I talk to him
I feel like I'm not doing SHIT with my life
all I do is work n sleep
=/

I need to change my life
STAT
I don't like doing things alone
but if I want MY life to change
I have to do it MYSELF
nobody's going to change it for me
*sigh*
oh well
wish me luck!